Week 5 - Entrusting myself to God/Healing

Welcome to this Friday evening meditation.

I try to become still and quiet within myself. I adopt a relaxed but attentive position and I become aware of my breathing.

I place myself in the presence of our loving God who is gazing at me with mercy and unconditional love.

Theme of the week

I see my life as it really is. In his own way, God is at work in my life. Everything that there is in my life, light and dark, can be entrusted to Him.

What I might wish to ask for

That my trust in God may grow

That I can entrust myself to Him.

That I may become intimate with God.

Music: De Noche Taizé

De noche iremos,

de noche

que para encontrar la fuente,

solo la sed nos alumbra,

sola la sed nos alumbra.

From night we will go,

from the night,

in order to find the Source.

Only the thirst gives us light.

Only the thirst gives us light.

Spotify link:

https://open.spotify.com/track/3WCOwVwUGM0F6EMJr37uJK?si=b4f4146e8a724bc1

YouTube link:

https://youtu.be/rUsxwIHWjk0?feature=shared

Lucas 7, 36-50

One of the Pharisees asked Jesus to eat with him, and He went into the Pharisee’s house, and sat at table. And behold, a woman of the city, who was a sinner, when she learned that He was sitting at table in the Pharisee’s house, brought an alabaster flask of ointment, and standing behind him at his feet, weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears, and wiped them with the hair of her head, and kissed his feet, and anointed them with the ointment. 

To step over the threshold of our own pride. To admit to myself that the way I was taking was leading me into a dead end. To make myself small for Jesus, who already has forgiven me as I enter. To make myself small in front of another person. Would I be able to do that? Can I see what the high threshold is, which may be blocking me?

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Now when the Pharisee who had invited him saw it, he said to himself, “If this man were a prophet, he would have known who and what sort of woman this is who is touching him, for she is a sinner.” And Jesus answering said to him, “Simon, I have something to say to you.” And he answered, “What is it, Teacher?” 

Jesus knows. He knows who the woman is, He knows who I am. What effect does this have on me? That someone can see through me, knows who I am.

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 “Do you see this woman? I entered your house, you gave me no water for my feet, but she has wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You gave me no kiss, but from the time I came in she has not ceased to kiss my feet. You did not anoint my head with oil, but she has anointed my feet with ointment. Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much;”

Love. Healing through love. Also in our own ordinary lives. Are there people whom I am able to love? Maybe even able to give the love of forgiveness? Or maybe I am also able to receive such love myself?

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“but he who is forgiven little, loves little.” And He said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.” 

So very much love from Jesus, from God, also for me, so that my shortcomings are forgiven. Can I accept that this is also meant for me?

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